I'm very very very tired.. Too tired to think about anything right now. I think it's partly because of the grades that I got for my prelims, especially my Math... I was supposed to get an A! What was I doing.. Feel like slapping myself on the face. :( .. I just can't seem to get things rite. I'm good for nothing?! *Bish*... Why do I keep thinking that. Haha.. Must be more optimistic. No way am I gonna let this be my hurdle to prevent me from getting my A's.. Must work extremely harder this time!

Must work hard.. Must work hard... .... ZZz... Must... ZzzzZZ *fell asleep*

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11:12 PM

*yawnz* I'm so tired.. Just finished around 3/4 of my article. Haix.. have to hand it up by next week so i better finish this as soon as possible.
*Ache* My body is still aching all over from that badminton match on Fri *ouchie* I think I haven't been exercising in a while that's why. :P The break is over and I have to get back to studying already or else I'll lose the momentum. Tsk tsk, won't want that to happen would I?

I'm quite worried about Math. Miss Wong said we did not do well this time. Super disappointing lo. I'm scared that I won't get my A *sob* Just got this bad feeling after hearing her words. *shivers* Well better not think too much about it le or else I'll have no MOOD to do anything. Ya. I'll just coop myself up at home and slack the whole day.

School term begins on Monday. I'm really looking forward to school! Especially to the day when the new timetable is out! Keke.. I guess I'll be able to study for even longer a time period after the new timetable's out. :) My parents are expecting me to do well for this prelims but i seriously doubt so. I'll have to work harder for the A's. Hmm let me see. Tomorrow I'll finish that article and start revising on Math! I need to brush up on my Math. I think I've lost my touch le :(

Ok it's getting really late. Gotta be up early tomorrow. Cya~

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2:15 AM

Don't really know why. But I just cannot get to SLEEP since last night. Woke up.. Did some editing to my msn. Thought that it would tire me out but no.. Just could not put myself to sleep. Dad came in at around 3 am. He couldn't sleep either. Argh! I think my whole family has insomia or wat?! Ok.. Finally forced myself to bed after he nagged at me. Still I think I only managed to get some sleep before i was awaken by my Dad.. to eat breakfast and do my morning prayer. ZzzzzZ.

Don't feel right today or at least I think so for the time being. *Finishes drinking another can of coffe*. -.- Zzzz . Gotta get ready for today's match. Hmm.. must try out my new racket.. *blehz* Haven't used it since Dad bought it for us like months and months ago? Ha... I think I'm gonna have a cold shower this morning.... I really hate myself..

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9:26 AM

Love is something you can't describe
like the look of a rose,
the smell of the rain,
or the feeling of forever.

- Kristen Kappel -

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8:19 AM

I'm sorry.. I fell asleep while waiting. But I guess I'm too late le... Haix

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1:28 AM

Today's the last day of the prelims. Wee! Haha! *jumps around in the room* Yeah. It's been a long and tiring 2 weeks not taking into consideration the amount of time spent studying for this exam! I just want to rest for the time being. Not wanting to see any books for the next 2 days. Heh. Well, but I'll get back to studying after that. Don't want to lose my momentum. ( As what Miss Ng said )

Till now I still cannot figure out what I want to be when I grow up. Yes. It may sound ridiculous. But it's not. I'm studying all the sciences but I just cannot make up my mind. *sighs* I've given some thought about it. Maybe engineering or teaching? I just cannot imagine what I'll be when i grow up. Hmm.. Ok. Had a really great time with her today.. Haha. We were watching Prince of tennis. I just love to look at ryoma echizen when he was a little boy. So cute! Yup.. :)

Argh. Still have to start on the article. Miss Seah asked me to write an article on the Maths project. CrapZ. I haven't started yet. Oh no.... I'm just not in the mood to do any work today because of something which happened yesterday. *sighs again*
Gtg for now. Cya later at nite~

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5:29 PM

Nowadays, I just feel so tired. Don't really know why but just tired. I guess it's all the work that's been stressing me out, slowly draining away my sanity. Now I just feel like sleeping. I wish I could fall into a deep sleep... but nonetheless I still have to study for tomorrow's physics paper. Crapz.. Haven't studied much. Hmm, went to Bukit Panjang plaza again. Although there's nothing much to see, I must say I enjoyed the time spent over there.

Hmph! Cherie scared me today at BP plaza. I was busy looking at the comics when some one just came up behind me. Like a panther surprising his prey. Haha. It almost scared the wits out of me. :p You should have seen her giggle all the way till the bowling centre. Wow!! Wee Jian is getting better at bowling.

Ok.. gtg le. Got to study for my physics. Will come back tmr to complete my blog..

To be continued.................

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8:18 PM

It's a busy day today. Right after physics paper, I had to rush home to change. Today's paper was relatively easy. However, as usual, there were careless mistakes made here and there. Things got more complicated when I got home. Argh.. Mum was rushing off to work so I had to help her with the household chores which definately took up much of my time. So in the end. I was late again. Ya. It takes me about 45 minutes to get to Jurong East which is quite long. Sorry~ made you wait again.

Ok.. This is so strange. Cherie was complaining about this guy who kept sitting on the sofa even though she put her things on it already. And she was like " faster come down.. I dunno what to do with this guy" Ok.. So i made my way down to the library. And soon after my arrival.. this guy just packed up and left. Amazing huh!?
I was like still thinking " how am i supposed to get this guy to leave " Haha.. Well, I got to sit on the bean bags today. Finally! After so many study sessions.. It's soo comfortable. As in your back and feet do not hurt. Yeah!

Well.. Alot of things happened after that la. For instance, we happened to chance on an on going ice hockey match. It's the first time I've seen a live match. It was really interesting. I must say that it's a little dangerous too, since the puck kept flying out of the arena. Phew, luckily didn't hit me ah.. Or else got one big bump on my head already. Haha.. Crapz. Ok getting tired le. Gtg sleep or else cannnot wake up tomorrow le. Ciao~

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11:45 PM

I'm tired. I guess it's because I've been out the whole day attending tuition lessons from 11 am in the morning all the way to 4.30 pm. It was so sweet of her to offer to help buy me lunch today. :) Thanks~ If not I would have already been eating chocolates throughout the whole lesson. I really wish that this Prelims will end soon. I don't want to give myself too much stress either. Later all the white hair come out. :p

I also want to get over with my A levels once and for all. Yeah. Must chiong all the way le. Recently I feel that I have this craving for chocolates and sweet stuff. Don't really know why either. I just find them sooo nice~. Just finished Physics revision. I really hope that everything turns out well for me tomorrow. I am already disappointed in my Chem practical results and I don't want to disappoint myself again.

Ok, got to go rest already. It's been a long day. Yeah, I think everyone is busy studying out there even right now. Well peeps, just don't overwork yourselves ya? *Yawnz* I think i better get going le! Crapz.. I'm glued to the com. Argh.. somebody help me? All the best guys. Ciao~ Sweet Dreams

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9:52 PM

It's been a long afternoon... I don't feel productive today. :( . Went to the library this afternoon to study only to realize that the library closes at 4 pm today because of some staff event. Crap.. Back at home.. You know la.. I can't really concentrate. Cos' I'll either be using the com or I'll be talking to my parents... so.. ya.. you know what I mean. Hmm. I think I've only managed to study till sexual reproduction in flower plants. I'm still far behind. Tomorrow I still have to study for physics. Argh.. Stress..

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8:07 PM

Hmm, super pain that day.. argh.. Well.. i hope the pain goes away forever! Eeks.. Imagine 3 doctors cross examining you one at a time. So pain.. Haha. Aiyoh.. made her worry. If i had known, i shouldn't have msged her that night. Should have waited till next morning. Caused her to worry for me.. Haix.

Got back my Chemistry practical paper today. I guess i had this feeling. I knew that i would not do well for the paper. Made alot alot of mistakes here and there. My practical skills are getting rusty. I've let Mdm Leow down. *sobZ* But there's still hope. The A levels practical should be easy according to her. ( Cos' it's the last year already ) :p Sometimes i really wish that i could help her in her studies. Really feel so bad if I'm the cause. Must push you le.. Make sure you get A for chem. haha.. Just kidding la.. I won't force you..

Hmm, now downloading naruto. Haix so long didn't watch anime le. I remember that i shed a few tears during episode 100. It's about Rock lee. He's badly injured after the battle. And the fifth hokage told him to give up the hopes of being a shinobi. His mentor finally persuaded him to go for the op. which only had 50 percent chance of survival. Ya.. and the mentor said.. " If your op fails. I'll die with you. Remember.. I'm your mentor. I said that I would train you till i die " Really very sad lo. :(

Haiyo.. I think i watch too much anime le la. Ya, and we went out today.. :) I enjoyed every moment of it actually.. Heyz.. don't be too sad le k.. Let's work together to our goals in life. :)

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8:22 PM

Hmm, i just could not get to sleep no matter what. Well, i only managed to get like 5 hours of sleep. And i don't really know why i woke up suddenly at four am in the morning.. Haha.. Crapz. I'm tired.. * yawnz * Did alot of things this morning. I just hope that i'll be able to concentrate for this maths exam. It's extremely important to me lo. Haix.. Think i better go le.. Hee~ by the way, i'm blogging in school. Got to return this laptop to Miss Seah as soon as possible or the lab technician will start nagging and her le.. Haha.
It's almost time le....

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6:42 AM

Yeah, I'm back home le. And i don't seem to see Pa and Ma around anywhere. I think they're at Mac now. Hehe. So, here's my chance. Better blog now or never. Mmm, the food's just delicious! Well, went studying again today. Same place -- "Lao Di Fang".
I grew up in JE and left for BP. Now after 3 years, I'm finally back. :p . I really miss the good old days,especially my Primary School mateys. Yeah. I've seem to lost all contact with ALL of them. That's just so sad, cos' i transferred sch after Primary 5. Well, I would really love to get back to them asap.. But i just can't find them on friendster.. :(

Ok, something Unexpected happened to me again. *blushes*. Makes me think of her again.. All I can say that is, many things happened to me today. I would really love to talk about it, but i figured that it'll probably take too long.. Haha. I guess i won't be disclosing anything yet. Anyway, today's paper. It's challenging. Well, i hope that it won't be that bad. Cos' I can't really see my A after today's paper. Sigh.. It seems so near yet so far. Last paper to go for Chem. It's extremely important that i do well in it. It's my last chance... Tomorrow is Math and I haven't really studied anything besides the formulae. Crapz.. I need to rush through everything again~

Argh.. I totally forgot about DE today. Sorry!@! I'll make it a point to come online tonight.. Ya. And if i really really really.. really can't make it.. Well I should be able to make it unless.. my dad falls asleep in my room again.~ (>.<) I think that DE will be out tomorrow so it's extremely important that you know what's it all about...
Got to go take a bathe le. *whistles*

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8:18 PM

You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked a grinning bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or let the eagle tell you where he's been?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

How high does the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down, you'll never know

And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or copper-skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain
Need to paint with all the colours of the wind
You can own the earthe and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colours of the wind
You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked a grinning bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or let the eagle tell you where he's been?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

How high does the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down, you'll never know

And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or copper-skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain
Need to paint with all the colours of the wind
You can own the earthe and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colours of the wind

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6:08 AM

Hmm.. I'm really glad that bio paper 2 is finally over. Whew~ I hope i can get at least a B this time ba. Maths was just alright. Darn, made some minor mistakes here and there. I think i lost quite a number of marks le. Sigh..Anyway.. went to Bukit Panjang Plaza this afternoon. Don't really know what I was doing there. I just tagged along. I really enjoyed it though.. Lolx. I'm so blur... *Zzz* haha. *winks*
Cya tonite~

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6:54 PM

Well.. another 7 hours of studying in the library.. :). I guess i'm pretty scared.. so I'm working doubly hard this time. I do not want to fail my bio again. Sigh.. which is very very disappointing. Oh.. and I finally managed to get the book -magic the gathering, the shattered alliance today. Woah, I've been waiting weeks for this. Hee~

Surprisingly, Pa left me some food even though I told him not to do so... Hmm.. he's still so caring. *blehz*. Haha. Luckily I didn't eat that much just now, or else I wouldn't be able to finish the food would I? Man, I almost doze off just now. ZzzZ. I guess I'm pretty worn out after days and days of studying.

I don't really know about this. But it's a whole new experience having someone new in your life and I don't really know how to put this into words either...so... haha.. :) Anyway,I've just finished reading my friend's blog update.Yeah, I totally agree. It's really hard to fanthom the phenomenal powers of human mind... Falling down into the bottomless pit really gives me the creeps.. *shivers*. Luckily i always find myself falling onto the bed when i wake up... hehe.
*yawnz*
Sleeping soon le.. Cya~

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11:24 PM

Ok, went to the library again to study. I can't believe that i sat there for 6 hours straight. Wahaha. Finished studying the chem core syllabus today.. Phew. Damn tired ah.. Sigh, but still, i'm unable to finish studying my food chem. Blehz.. :p
It's getting late le... Dad's nagging and i'm deadbeatz.. haha. My face.. ! It's not ok now.. looks sorta red.. Eeks. And it's so dry. Aiyoh.. all because of that cream. Hehe.. It's so dry now. But it should go away in a few days or even weeks ba. Bad move zhihan.. bad move...

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11:27 PM

Haix.. i'm still thinking about it.. Aiyoh.. like that how to concentrate on my studies.. sigh.. WEll, went to Bp library yesterday to study bio. Lost count of how many times i actually fell asleep over there. Keke. I guess i didn't really have a good nite's rest the day b4 lo. But on the whole, i managed to cover most of my core syallbus topics on bio. Wee~ Now i'm just left with some of the j1 topics like cell structure and biological molecules. :). I'm deciding to go the library today again.. Cos' i don't really think i can concentrate that well at home. Yuppz. I almost froze again, yesterday. Oops.. haha. So today i better bring my jacket along with me le. Why always forget one ah? -.-

Went for a jog this morning. I'm getting FAT! and i mean it. Haha. So i better start working out. Also, running sorta helps me to destress. ^-^y. Before that, went to cy's house to return him his sleeping bag. Well, he had alot of problems. eg. frenz and relationships. So i guess the best i could do was to lend him a listening ear. I hope he's alright. He seems a little stressed up too. Sigh..

Well, i'm looking forward to tomorrow's Chem paper. I want to get over it once and for all. Well, it's not really the last chem paper 3 that i'm gonna have. Just that i don't have to worry about soo many subjects at a time. so here's the plan. Read thru org notes. 2. prepare inorg answers and read thru chem notes. 3. Food Chem revision. I don't really believe in tips. The tutors have given us tips on what to expect for this prelims. But i don't believe in relying on them. You aren't gonna have anyone helping you for the actual A levels. Ya. So i guess i'm not going to think about it lo. Anyway, i also dun have the june and dec. 2003 a level food chem papers. :p

I soo smelly now. haha, better go and bathe le. Ciao~

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9:19 AM

Hmmm, don't know what really came over me when it happened. I guess it all happened too fast ba? I was a bit stunned.(only abit) At first i thought that it was just....But it wasnt. For the rest of the time, i was thinking.. Many things seemed to flash across my mind. Tried to suppress those emotions but hehe.. ^-^. Argh.. i just can't stop thinking about it when i'm told not to.. sorry~ ( Haix.. see, i'm up so early le ) :p. Just got another 2 books from the library yesterday after group studying. I'm so hooked on to Jeffery Archer's books. Heh. Yup, and i'm still searching for his books in the library. Crapz.. they're all on loan. Haha...

Then when kai jie and I were going to je mrt station, we met this guy who claimed that he needed 1.50 for his trip back home cos' he had just lost his Ez-Link card. Well.. in the end, ya, we gave him the money. I don't know if it's true or not. But he really seemed sincere lo. Don't look like those con men. He even offered to give us his hp. no. so that he could return us the money. But we turned him down. I don't really want to find out if he's sincere anot. So long as i don't find out, it's ok. Becuase.. i really hate people who are dishonest..

Ok, 2 more days to prelim le. And i've just realised that i've lost my yellow book. SobZ. Just couldn't find it when i got home yesterday. I think i really didn't notice the missing book till i started revising.. hehe. Well, thank god that i'm still attending chem tuition, cos' the notes are really really really helpful. ( Though too many le ). Oh.. forgot.. there's no tuition on monday. Wellz, i better prepare my inorg notes. Depended too much on the yellow book back then.


Didn't know that someone actually feels for me.. Well.. all i can say is to treasure those around you. *winks*
Hmm, i actually feel like going for a run right now. The weather's great!
'Jia you for your A's! Need help come find me k? :P'

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6:55 AM

Wee~ going to study with Cherie tomorrow.. Haha. Ok, lemme see, i'm gonna be studying Bio tmr. Bio bio.... my weakest subject. Hmm. Looks like i'm not left with much time already. Well ok.. Gotta reach JE library by 11 am. Promised her that i would be early this time. Heh.. Cos' later no more space le. Well, the early bird gets the worm rite? lolx.
Gee, yesterday, we sorta got chased out by the guard in the library. Cos' of that new ruling lo. "No studying in the reference sections or in any part of the library, except the last level", that's what he said! Argh! I just detest this new ruling totally. It really puts me off. >.< I don't see woodlands library doing that to it's patrons! Hmph! Aiyah.. but what do to. Sianz, got to go by the book. That's why, i'm going early tmr. Kekeke.
Let's hope i get a good studying corner. *prays* ( Hopefully with bean bags as well :P) Oops, gotta get back to Food Chem. Mmmm, foooood~ Argh.. another craving for a night snack.. No! I must stop this. ROFl.
Hmm.. sometimes i just wonder, what am i supposed to do in this life. What is my mission or goal in this life. I really don't know. There are still alot of things which my mind cannot really fanthom at this point of time. Relationships, studies, blah blah.. Issit because i'm not mature enough yet? hahas.. Maybe so.
Ok gtg Ciao~

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11:36 PM

I managed to study for 8 hours today.. ZZZ i'm so tired already. Going to sleep already..
But i don't think it's enough, so i intend to go for 10 hours tmr :p . Woah, mr chong gave us a summary on organic chem tonight. He says that it's a summay on everything on organic. Keke! Now i have no need to fear org chem. ^-^

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11:02 PM

Hai~ today was Gp.. It was ok actually, compared to the other 3 practical examinations, Haiz.. don't want to talk about them le. Anyway, the holidays are here already!! Y i p p e e! I just love the holidays dont u? Now i have all the time that i want to finish my revesion. Cos' i feel that our timetable is just sooo long lo. Other schools are having condensed timetables already. >.<
Hmm, lemme see. Monday still got Mr Chan aka Snorlax's lesson. Haha.. This one must go.. cos' i feel that he's the best chem teacher around in this sch :p. Well.. That's what i think la.

I still think that i can't finish Bio revesion in time for the prelims. Argh.. headache. There's still the option paper. Darn.. There's just so many things to remember. I wanna insert a chip into my head someday if i do manage to invent one.. Haha.

Hmm, gotta prepare for tuition le. I wonder what he's gonna teach today. Maybe it's those prelim MCQ papers again. Aiyoh.. I'm sick and tired of doing MCQ already lo. I think he should go through paper 2 or 3 for a change.. Haha. Not that i hate him or whatsoever, it's like i always fall asleep during his lessons. (Well, sometimes only..) :p. Sianz, waste money.. Haha. Cannot continue doing this le. [0]-[0] Ciao~

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5:35 PM

Haix.. Don't think i did well for today's practical. I sorta misread the question for the design experiment. That cost me 10 marks!! Well. What's done is done. I'm just so fed up.. argh.. >.<

.. DHaix

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5:34 PM

Wee` Had loads of fun today during teacher's day celebrations.. haha.. We gave mr tan and mr riduwan a cookie monster and elmo plush. kekeke~ Each.. So cute! The best part was that the plushies were wearing underwears wif their names written on it :p. I really hope that they will like the present.Hmm, after that we went back to DSS to visit our tchers. The juniors are so ke lian, tcher's day celebration still got lessons. aiyoh.. i also dunno what the principal is thinking lo. Haha. Anyway, we got to meet most of our teachers. I even met my senior. I was so surprised that he still remembered me.. but i didn't .. so paiseh lo. He was like talking to me and i was going like eh.. oic ic.. -.-.

Wahha. The whole bunch of us went to BP afterwards to bowl.. So fun~ Anyway, i only managed to get home at around 11pm. Oh no.. Dad's so furious lo.. He stayed up all night just to wait for me to come back. Haix.. Dunno whether i'll be grounded anot..

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